Posted by Jost on November 7, 2006, at 21:30:10
In reply to Re: I've Done What You've Said And No Results, posted by Phillipa on November 7, 2006, at 20:28:31
Phillipa. I'm really sad reading what you say about your early life and your Mother's illness.
It's almost as if you feel you shouldn't have been affected by those things. I'm sorry that your Mother had such a hard life. and also that you were exposed to someone in such terrible difficulties and who couldn't hold herself together-- for whatever reason-and who had many irrational ideas about herself and her world.
None of that was your responsibility. You couldn't possibly have coped with that.
People feeling confident and optimistic and attractive-- is not cocky. Maybe you made mistakes-- you don't have to pay for them forever, you haven't given up the right for a good life now-- even if you did things that didn't make sense, in retrospect. (Hindsight is 20/20, you know?)
You've got to keep trying. You *can* find a therapist-- and it's crucial for you to go on, even if you feel recently that you can't.
I just want to ask you again. What happened with either going up on/ or stopping the Luvox? what about some other anti-depressants? I know you're afraid of medication-- but you must push through that. You have to try, until you can make it to finding better medications and a T whom you can work with.
These things can happen. You aren't that old! People live a long time-- you're strong-- yes, you have some physical problems-- but with good treatment, you can survive in good health, for many many good years.
I wish you could forgive yourself for so many things that weren't your fault.
{{{{{Phillipa}}}}}
Jost
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