Posted by bent on October 27, 2006, at 10:55:04
So my T cancelled two weeks in a row. I am not mad now because I know why and I understand. She needs to be with her family and friends and not at work. I am 100 percent sure that i am not mad at that. One was a distant friend and the other a mother in-law.
I am thinking I am just a selfish pig for sitting here planning not to return to my therapy at least for several weeks. I have the audacity to sit here and feel sad because my T does in fact have a life and things like deaths happen to her too. She too is probably sad right now but for a much better reason than me. No one died in my life. I have the nerve to sit here and think about when my grandmother died and how the only person I could not be around, could not show emotion around, or be comforted by was my mother. But I envision my T and her daughters getting one another through this time. Of course I don’t totally know this, but I know they are close, but everyone deals with grief their own way. I must be a total slug to be envious of the support and comforting my T will be giving/receiving.
I just want a break right now. How in the world can I go back to therapy next week and tell her anything like this. I don’t want to tell her this stuff. Even if I do go to my appointment next week, none of this will come up. She’s only taking off work for two days and I can’t show up and jump into my problems. I don’t like myself for feeling this way.
poster:bent
thread:698174
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