Posted by Racer on October 25, 2006, at 12:53:40
In reply to I give up, posted by wishingstar on October 25, 2006, at 10:32:18
Betcha that got your attention, right? ;-) Couldn't you see my eyes rolling?
> I told Laurie on Friday that even the strongest people have a line. A point where they just cant take it anymore and they break. She said "that's just the borderline in me talking".Oh, she must be absolutely right, mustn't she? After all, if it wasn't your borderline talking, you'd be able to see that "normal" people can take absolutely any horrors heaped on them without reacting, didn't you know that? Whoops! I'm getting sarcastic, which is not considered civil... But I'm also trying to put it into a little humorous perspective for you.
What I read in your post is a lot of the sort of invalidation that probably produces borderline features in the first place. While there might be a point in challenging every statement which might reflect borderline thinking, there's also a point in examining whether there's any reality to a statement before assuming it's just borderline acting out. You know, kinda like the "Just because I'm paranoid doesn't mean someone's not out to get me."
I'm sorry, WishingStar -- I can hear how isolated you sound, and how unhappy. For whatever it's worth to you, I think the scheduling issues are perfectly reasonable for you to be upset about. My T has never asked to reschedule me to accommodate someone else. I trust that she never will, or that if ever she did do it, it would be an absolute emergency -- and that if I told her it was a problem for me, she would see me at my regular time and arrange to see the emergency at another time. If Laurie knew enough in advance that she could call you to reschedule, I'm not sure why she wouldn't have been able to make alternate arrangements with the other people. (Unless, of course, it was just another double-booking. My T is terrible about remembering when she's scheduled me. She knows that. That's why she writes it down. There's a technology you might want to offer to Laurie if double bookings are a common problem.)
I only wish I could email you my T. She's good, she's nice, she's respectful of me, even when I'm nuts. (Mostly. Every so often, she'll misinterpret something, but mostly she treats me as though I'm a human being, and have worth.) Instead, let me tell you that there really is hope. There are good Ts, there are good enough Ts, there are good for right now Ts, there are good but not for me Ts, there are OK Ts -- and there are some just plain not good Ts. It doesn't sound as though Laurie fits into the first three categories for you right now. I hope you find someone who does. And I hope you find her/him very soon.
And I hope, if you do give up, you at least allow us here on this site to try to support you while you look for Dr GoodT.
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