Posted by wishingstar on October 12, 2006, at 11:09:30
In reply to Saw new T today, posted by wishingstar on October 10, 2006, at 10:46:18
Thank you everyone for your supportive, encouraging responses. I too am excited about the new T... even without the immediate connection, she seems very attentive and smart.
I should say I WAS excited. But then, my luck kicked back in.
She promised on Tues to call me today to see how I'm doing. She did, about an hour ago. But I didnt like what I heard.
She said she isnt sure she is the best person for me. Now, her reason is good and she really is looking out for my best interests... but still. Basically she just said she cant promise me twice a week right now, and she thinks I need it.. and shes afraid I wont be getting the help I need once a week. She said she wanted to talk about it now before we got into things and it became harder. Obviously, I really respect and appreciate her being honest with me now and looking out for my best interests.
For some reason, it hurts. I'm not even attached to this woman yet, but I'm almost in tears writing this. Not again. Why can nothing EVER work out? She had a cancellation today so I'm going in to see her at 3 to talk about this. She said she has some names she can give me. Great. F-ing great.
You guys, I cant keep doing this. I put my hope in things way too easily. Hope is only a way to get hurt.. I truly believe that. I know this is the best for me, but it doesnt matter. I'm tired of being rejected.
poster:wishingstar
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