Posted by wishingstar on October 10, 2006, at 10:46:18
Well, I saw my new T this morning for the first time. Her name is Ginny. I think it went fairly well. I didnt get the instant connection feeling I was hoping for, but she seemed very nice and seemed to get what I was saying. She's pretty young (mid-30s maybe) and energetic. I told her about how bad I've been feeling and she seemed to really get it and seemed genuinely concerned, very much unlike Anne. I had a chance to tell her how important it is to me that I feel heard, that Ts do what they promise theyll do (return calls, etc) and all those things. At the end of the session, we discussed whether or not I needed to be in the hospital and decided not, but she said she was anxious to let me leave when I'm feeling so badly. I dont want to make her stressed, but at the same time, at least I know she heard what I was saying. She is going to call me on Thursday (her only other day in the office) to make sure I'm okay and said she'll try to fit me in that day for another session. The "wait, am I making too big a deal out of this?" feeling in me is kicking in big time. But I know she heard me.
We also talked about whether I should be seeing someone who can promise me twice a week instead of her. She said she can only promise once (which is what I've been doing anyway) but there may be some weeks she can do twice (she only works 2 days a week). For now, we're going to go with that and see what happens.
As I went to leave, she touched my back briefly. That is a good sign in my mind. I have a hard time with the Ts who are very removed and detached, and I really felt like her and I were having a person-to-person conversation, not some "im the therapist, youre the client" discussion. She even said I could call her if I needed to.
I really didnt feel connected to her though. That sounds silly, given how good everything else I wrote sounds. But of course, that comes in time... I was just hoping to feel it some today. I just didnt leave with the feeling of "ahh, this is it". Her office is not particularly warm or inviting and she was such a real person (as opposed to most Ts who dont seem like real people!) that it makes it a little more scary for me. I think the connection can develop. I'm hoping so anyway.
Anyway, thats about it. Thank you so much everyone for your support. She is going to talk to both Anne and Laurie, and I advised her to not take what Anne says terribly seriously.. she said that Randy didnt think highly of Anne either, so she wouldnt. I'm glad because I was afraid Anne would make me sound totally crazy and give the new T the wrong impression.. but she sounds smart. Shes the director of the counseling center actually... you must be EXTRA crazy to see the director of the entire place huh? Oh well.
Thanks everyone. I dont know where I would be without you.
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