Posted by llrrrpp on September 12, 2006, at 22:53:47
Contents of post-it note found in pocket of young woman after her session with T.
1) I'm a waste of time/ a burden
2) I can get through this on my own
3) I'm only getting better because I like to please you
4) It matters to me that you enjoy working with me (or that you get *anything* positive out of working with me, besides your paycheck)
5) I don't like being selfish.Actual outline of session.
0-6 mins "I'm fine. [staring at floor] i got some work done. it was okay. i like working now."6-14 mins "let me tell you more about my work. maybe it's relevant to clinical psychology"
15-20 mins "my mom thinks my uncle may have been murdered in his institution, but I think it was a suicide"
20-40 mins [grinning smiling cracking jokes] "haha. haha. haha" [isn't he at all concerned that he is making me think about bad things, telling all about suicide autopsies, and his work with the criminally insane? why doesn't he seem to notice that I'm not so comfortable talking about one of his patients who died during a "session?"] Haha, that sounds really hard. What is THIS then, your fluffy day job? ha ha [no comment. maybe this job bores him off his *ss, but it's got great benefits. f*ck me. why am I still here?] "I know I'm not like those people. I actually am responding well to medication." [yes, and respond well to therapy too, well maybe when I can actually talk about the crap I wrote down on my post-it note. WHY ARE WE STILL TALKING ABOUT DEAD PSYCHOS? WHY THE F*CK WON'T HE LET ME CHANGE THE F*CKING TOPIC?]
40-41 min "Haha, well this has been lovely. I think I'm done. time is out right? I think I'm done. haha"
41-42 min "my omelette needs a few more minutes in the oven before what? before I'm fried? before I'm baked? -- a low fat omelet? Oh okay. I'm done for today then. Bye!!!!! Hahaha"
42 min "mumble mumble. sure, whatever haha"[HOLY ROMAN F*CK. I KNOW THAT GUY FROM MY OLD JOB. OH GOD. HE'S GOING TO THINK I'M a F*CKING LUNATIC. play it cool, sistah, smile, make eye contact. don't worry, you didn't almost run him down. coast is clear. run run RUN!!! I can't believe T just set up the next appt as I was running down the hall away from him] haha! oops, sorry [Oh F*CK. someone just opened the door to the psycho-house and I was right there. AwKwArD!?!?] hahaha. [I'm so pleasant, so charming and witty. bubbly conversational partner. WTF did T need to go on and on with the post-mortem, investigations, dying, suicide, inquest stuff for? hanging? murder? don't matter to me. feel bad for the post-it note though] hahaha. what a nice day today is. how are You doing? haha
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