Posted by muffled on September 9, 2006, at 1:12:49
In reply to worried about T, posted by sunnydays on September 8, 2006, at 22:32:26
My T and I were talking today and I asked him at one point if he was sick of me. He said no, and we were talking some more about different things. And then I said, are you sure you're not sick of me? And he said yes, and asked me why I wanted to know, was I picking up on something or did he say something, and I said no, but then he asked if I was sure.
***sorry, I know it hurts, beleive me, but I laughed as I read this post cuz I just did the same thing w/my T a few days ago. My exact words. Are you sick of me. LOL. Sorry I laugh, but it just feels so good to not be alone in this.I think I even posted on it up above here somewhere.
And he had suggested a group earlier, and I said I was worried that that meant he was sick of me, and he said it absolutely didn't, that he expected to keep seeing me, that he appreciated me and wasn't at all sick of me and that he wouldn't abandon me.
***Again exactly the same with me. Awhile back my T wanted to get some additional help cuz she was struggling with me. Of course I instantly translated that into, 'she wants to dump me'. I even have a word for it. When I fax my T, I tell her I'm getting 'dumpmeitis' again.
The other day when I asked myT if she was sick of me, she said I was challenging. Which I immediately interpreted as 'I am a pain in the *ss'. Fortunately she caught on that I was bothered and explained what she meant. Took me 15 mins, to finally get what she meant. Sigh.And he said that it's just what happens when you 'develop feelings for someone' and aren't used to it.
***Yeah, the whole attachment thing is crazy for me. REALLY struggling w/that one.
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> So that was really nice, and I really felt held then, almost, if that makes any sense. So why tonight am I convinced again that I'm too much and that he's sick of me? I sometimes email him, and I'm afraid to email him because I think he's sick of me. But I know he's not, because he was so nice to me today.***Yep. I got the same prob. But it seems you are able to talk to him about it which is huge. Maybe you could ask him, at what point would you feel bothered if I sent too many e-mails? How many is too many?
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> Again, I hope I didn't upset anyone by posting that. I just am kind of torn up about it, and it's so confusing and it makes me sad almost that I can't make it stick in my head. Has anyone else had their T tell them they will be there for them and then managed to convince themselves otherwise? I don't know, I'm just confused.***My T has told me proly 100 times that she cares bout me, that I important to her, etc.
She proly told me a thousand times that she not gonna dump me.
And yet,
and yet,
sigh,
I STILL get dumpmeitis.......
Take care,
Muffled
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> sunnydays
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