Posted by llrrrpp on September 1, 2006, at 10:48:35
In reply to Re: Whoa -- where did that come from? (Part 1 - l » Daisym, posted by llrrrpp on September 1, 2006, at 10:37:40
((((Racer))))
I got mixed up and thought that i was reading AllDone's thread. I'm so careless. Well. you all three deserve hugs. Everyone deserves hugs.I'm giving little mini hugs today, 'cause that's what I've got available. Can't muster up too much love without breaking myself, but the bit that I've got, I'm going to spread it around.
hope your pt thing goes well. I think my pt may be catching on that i haven't done my homework in 3 months. I just need to make it part of my routine again. The problem is that I'm supposed to do this for about 6 months to learn the basics, and I'm on month 7, and I've noticed that my progress has slowed. I'm sure he'd try more advanced stuff, if he thought we were ready, but I'm just wasting an hour. Oh, sure we like to chat. We get on fabulously, but in terms of me using my noggin to apply this stuff in my everyday life. well.
I have to say though, that PT has been pretty therapeutic to my psyche. For one thing, I have gotten comfortable with a man touching my body. I have gotten over the fact that I might do something to embarass myself, like fall on my *ss, or take him down with me. I have even gotten to the point where I'll allow myself to relenquish control over my limbs, so that he can take charge and explore the range of motion without my resistance. And the scariest part of all- which is still very much a work in progress- is to explore what happens when I'm taken out of equilibrium. For instance, when I have to lean back, ever so slightly, and allow him to take on (part) of my weight and support me so that I don't topple. Can I trust? Can I relenquish control over that basic function? Some days I can, (600mg of Fukitol) and some days I'm a quivering mass of anxiety, and we have to try several times to get me to relax and not fight it. It's tough Racer, to train our bodies to give up old habits. Don't be too hard on yourself if a strange PT makes you uncomfortable. I think that's totally normal.
-ll
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