Posted by LadyBug on August 28, 2006, at 23:38:41
In reply to Taking a Break, posted by LadyBug on August 28, 2006, at 15:03:09
A few of you asked me why I don't want to call my T. We've had a hard time lately and decided to work on three things one of them my dependance on her. I didn't think I was that dependant on her lately but she must think she replaces something in my life that I should be getting from other people. So I decided that my own boundary would be to show her that I don't need her inbetween sessions. It's not really anything she told me to do. She became annoyed with me a few weeks ago and in one of our sessions she told me she didn't think she had the capacity to work on something in particular. It's a long story, one that I'm not in the mood to type out right now.
When I am hurting, which I am right now, I withdraw from everyone. That is the child in me saying "If I stay away from everyone, no one can hurt me."This is why I am withdrawing and it has nothing to do with anyone here. It's just something I need to work through. I am hurting right now. I haven't talked to my husband for a week. Try living in the same house and avoid someone like that. I truely hate his guts! That's why I'm hurting. I am making a plan. Don't know how it will go, but at least my wheels are in motion. I want to get my debt paid off, it's less than a thousand dollars. Maybe stop going to therapy, save that money and between the two, maybe I can find a place to move to. I want out of this place. We don't own our home, thanks to my husband and his poor choices. I'm tired of suffering the consequences of his choices.
You guys are so understanding and helpful. I don't know if I *can* stay away. To the world, I pretend that everything is fine. Inside, I'm a mess. I do appreciate your help and support. I've learned so much from babble, stuff that you guys go through that I understand. I love my therapist, she is good to me in the ways that she can be. I will talk to her about this and tell her that this isn't a good time for me to work on being independant. I know she'll be fine with it.
Hugs to you my babble friends~~~
LadyBug
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