Posted by LadyBug on August 28, 2006, at 15:03:09
I think I'm outta here for a bit.
I'm going through a very hard time right now and I want to withdraw from everyone and everything in my life. I want to tell my T that I don't want to see her either. She won't agree and I let her intimidate me. She makes me feel like taking a break isn't a good idea. I can live without therapy, although I'd miss her terribly. She is a strong point in my life right now. I'm sitting on the fence right now, and I don't know which way to fall off. Either way is going to hurt.
I'm withdrawing from here, my friends, my parents, my religious leader, and obviously my husband. He's the reason of all my struggles right now. My kids are my world, I will never withdraw from them. I hate my life. I hate life in general. It sucks, it always has been hard for me and I don't just mean hard, I mean unfair. I guess I've made bad choices so I suffer. But some of why I suffer is because of other people's choices. (My husband.)
I want to call and talk to my T but I agreed not to call her. I can't leave work to go see her, plus I can't afford it right now, I've already seen her a few extra times this month.
See ya'll when I feel like coming back. Who knows when, a week, a year, a life time?
I care about all of you here. I wish you all could figure out all the things that you struggle with in therapy or why you are in therapy in the first place.
Hugs to everyone. Thanks for all your support. I love babble, it's been so good for me. I just don't have anything to give for now.
LadyBug
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