Posted by inimitable on August 8, 2006, at 14:03:25
In reply to Re: Another one! » inimitable, posted by ElaineM on August 8, 2006, at 11:31:38
actually, i get what you mean. see i think i do get caught up to quickly, because when i get to know someone, and the we decide to be exclusive, i then find out everything about them, by asking them things and getting to know everything i can, and i tell them everything, because i figure if you are in a relationship with someone, you should know them. and so i think i have been confusing intimacy with KNOWING someone intimately.maybe, i don't know. but i know i don't really end up feeling anything remotely intimate with these relationships of mine, no connection or anything. so i think you're right, this time (well the next time) i start a relationship, i will go slower i think, it would be best i think since i'm trying something new!
and yes, i actually offered eryk to talk through messenger (im ing) and he said he doesn't do that too often, so no. but yes, i usually do attract the shyer guys, as well as the guys i'm not attracted to, but these past couple of times, i find them attractive too!
my T doesn't really tell me he's proud of me or anything. i guess i have noticed that although i have been infatuated with him (and maybe in love, although i won't allow myself to call it that seeing as how i don't even know him, and also don't know what love really feels like) we don't really connect, which is kind of contradictory, i know, but we aren't very emotional, no hugs, no real ummm.....i don't know how to say it. i mean he's only one year or so older than me, how could i possibly form any sort of therapeutic relationship with someone just one year older? but hey, it's cheaper! i am sorry, gonna go off on a little tangent, or maybe i already did. i am kind of starting to accept that nothigs going to ever happen, even though i already knew that it wouldn't ever happen, and i dont think about him as much anymore, but it's still frustrating having to see him every week, and to top it off, he was kind of going into the conversation of termination soon (yesterday, monday), and how maybe i could join a club on campus to fill the void, because his supervisor thinks that's why i am attatching to him, to fill the void i had in my life when my problems with my husband dissapeared (because my husband moved out), so there was nothign going on in my life, and so i placed andy in that void.......and so andy thinks i should join a club....okay i am done! sorry i was ranting, at least a little bit anyways.again, thank you for listening (reading) all of you who read this, and also especially elaine, i think it's great how you manage to contribute a little to almost everyone's posts, you really seem like a caring person! here, have a smile, from me to you :)have a nice day everyone
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