Posted by ElaineM on August 8, 2006, at 9:41:16
In reply to Loving therapist/progress, posted by thewrite1 on August 7, 2006, at 18:35:18
What a lovely message Write1. I don't think I recognize your name, so I guess you were here before I came. You sound like you are in such a good place in your therapy. Your T sounds so gentle and understanding. So you think that the pain of having, and addressing your feelings of love have been worth it in the long run?
I've always had strong feelings of love, or needing to be loved, from older women. Not sexual in anyway, but I remember in grade school how, if a teacher was kind to me, I'd fall in love with her, and cry at night cause she wasn't my mother. I always used to try an collect "substitute mothers" when younger. That stopped through the teen years, and I only feared everyone, until I met my ED T and LadyDoctor. I think I can say that I loved them -- do love them still. My T now says that he loves them too, because they've given me the opportnunity to create a space in my head for a Good Mother archetype. I love them because they created the possibility for me to witness, and believe in, the gentleness and lovingness -- maternalness -- of an older woman. Really, of people in general.
Your story made me think of that. Thank you :-)
I can see what you mean by it being frustrating being told that you need to mother yourself. How do you learn that, if you didnt' ever get to experience it? I don't think it makes it any easier to learn just because we're older now ourselves. But it sounds like your T is right there to help you work on figuring it out.
Vacations are hard. Summer's kinda cr*ppy that way. If it helps the time pass to post here, by all means post away :-)
Anyway, I thought it was great to hear of a positive outcome of T attachment. THere's been another babbler's posts I've been reading too that are equally as hopeful. (I guess for me, I'd like to hear from anyone with a positive outcome of reciprocated affection.) Nice to meet you. Hope you stick around for a little while.
Elaine
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