Posted by Karolina on July 18, 2006, at 21:48:25
In reply to get kicked out?, posted by Karolina on July 16, 2006, at 23:14:11
Thanks so much everyone for your responses.
Racer and ElaineM - I am really sorry to hear about your experiences with your T's. That is terrible, I can't believe how unprofessional and insensitive they were being.
When I was younger I had a T who had a major crush on my pediatrician, who was still handling my prescriptions at the time (I didn't have a pdoc yet). She would push so many medications at me and make me take these lame tests to see if I had ADD and stuff like that. Then she would get on the phone with him to discuss medications and attempt to flirt with him...it was awful, like she was using me as an excuse to try and talk to him or something.
Anyway I agree that maybe I should bring up my fears about him terminating me; I guess my main fear is that I'm freaking him out by talking about/writing about my attraction to him and what it means. But I really am trying to look at everything from a therapeutic viewpoint.
I really do forget that Ts are human too so maybe I am overreacting, but he seems to go back and forth between: being flirty with me, giving me those long deep stares, using explicit language or sexual terms, encourage me to talk about my relationship with my ex-boyfriend, etc *or* looks away when I look back at him while he's talking, looks down at the ground and plays with a pen or takes out one of his buisness cards and folds it over and over, and tries to change the subject to anything but sexual. And rarely, he will just be completely blank, like he is numb to everything or maybe has other stuff on his mind and is much less responsive than usual.
I really don't get him and I guess that's why I'm so hesitant about bringing up these feelings with him, I never know how he's going to react. And for some reason his reactions make me feel guilty like I'm doing something wrong.
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