Posted by Mme All Talk on July 12, 2006, at 18:29:05
In reply to Wish T were here..., posted by Mme All Talk on July 11, 2006, at 17:16:04
Thank you for those who responded. i am still in a state of total despair, not that anyone would think differently after just one day. i am miserable, really depressed and sick of going through the motions of the day when inside i just want to collapse and cry and see my t already, which i wont until the 31st. I feel so desparate, so out of control. I just want nothing to do with anything or anyone. I wish i could hide away for the month and not come out until my t returned, which wouldnt even work because if i didnt have people who depended on seeing me i cant imagine i would live to see the end of the month. I am definitely getting myself more depressed, which my t wouldnt want, and i really dont know how on earth to deter it. My Pdoc is available to me, but i dont even know what to say to her anymore, she thinks this should be so routine, as i have been seeing my t for 15 years now, that i should be used to dealing with breaks, so she doesnt get that i am as crazed as i am. Or she knows i am as crazed as i am but doesnt attribute it to this, she thinks something else is going on that i am not telling her. Dont ask... Whatever the case, I am doing horribly, I dont know what to do with myself and feel completely alone, I am not eating, not sleeping well, I'm crying hours each day, I'm just a mess! Is there no hope for me? It feels that way.
poster:Mme All Talk
thread:666129
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