Posted by wishingstar on June 29, 2006, at 12:28:30
In reply to Re: wait.. will I get in trouble?, posted by Jost on June 28, 2006, at 22:15:37
Hi jost.. thanks for saying you were thinking of me. I appreciate it. Sorry about all the confusion with the old/new/whatever.. I'm confusing myself too now.
I do feel really torn, you're right. I dont know who I can rely on, who really cares, if it's fair to divide my loyalty like this.. I dont know. I feel like I'm somehow betraying my regular T.
Regular T at home actually knows that I'm seeing the other woman here in town, and even though it feels a little weird, I'm not worried about hiding that. She didnt seem to mind (or didnt act like she did anyway). I'm really worried about the T here finding out that I called my regular T. I'm afraid she'll be mad. But I personally think its okay, I just need to hold on to that connection a little bit. It's not like I'm seeing 2 therapists at once... I hope she sees it that way too.
I think the reason I really felt the need to call my regular T was because I know her so much better. I did see the other woman for a long time in the past, but its been so long, I'm not that comfortable with her yet. Things havent been very good, and I just need to hear from someone who really knows me as I am today and who I really trust. The T here is very good, but not all that comforting yet because its so new. Hopefully she'll understand that.
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