Posted by ElaineM on June 19, 2006, at 15:22:54
In reply to Re: can professionals keep this a secret?, posted by susan47 on June 18, 2006, at 21:35:23
Susan: I know, it should be untrue. It doesn't make sense to me either, that he would choose me to treat differently. He's such an organized, intelligent, mature man with a really nice life (at least as much as I've seen). It's unbelievable to think that he would want to be around someone so screwed-up any more than he had to. It's not like I'm even pretty.
That's why I question myself so much, and am so afraid to tell my doctor, or another T. I can't believe it myself so why would anyone else? Here I am worried that my doc wouldn't keep it between the two of us, when she probably wouldn't even believe me in the first place. It's not like I can prove anything. It'd be a T-said vs. messed-up-she-said thing.
If I pushed myself to say something and had it doubted by her then I'd die. I couldn't take it. I'd lose my mind. Though if I had to choose I'd rather feel like crap myself than get him in trouble.
Thanks for showing concern. Though I kind of think that I'm just getting more and more scared by trying to figure this out.
El
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