Posted by Fall Girl on June 18, 2006, at 22:21:00
In reply to Re: keep this a secret? FallGirl, posted by ElaineM on June 18, 2006, at 10:21:07
Oh to have the words for all that your post makes me think and feel. You are precious and attached to your T (as most of us are) by profound threads of transference from maybe even a pre-language age. From your vantage point it can be very difficult to be pro-active about such a bond. It is very much like being that defenseless child with its parent. Try to remember that you ARE an adult and that you do not have to 'go with however he chooses to proceed'. You have a voice.
It's also been my experience that getting in with a new T. can happen rather quickly, particularly if you let them know that you have concerns about what is happening with your current T. I don't know where you see this man; private practice or what, but you could contact a local university. At the university I attend, there is a psychological services center available for the community as well as students. I once had a concern about my T. and they saw me the next day (I didn't even tell them I was a student).
I have to disagree with you about one thing: "...I could never picture him doing anything so unkind." He IS doing something so unkind to you, it just isn't as obvious as hitting. He has taken advantage of your transference to him, your trust in him, your vulnerability, and has stopped providing therapy. He's broken the oath he took to do no harm.
All that I say, I say out of a feeling of sisterhood with you, and from wanting the best for you. I don't wish to judge you! FG
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