Posted by scentedgarden on June 15, 2006, at 14:28:09
In reply to Scentedgarden, are you okay?, posted by happyflower on June 14, 2006, at 20:56:18
Hey Happyflower! ...
Thats kind of you to think of me, It's comforting to know that you understand the tough time i'm having right now...thanks for sharing the personal info with me the other day, you gave me a few things to think about, and I guess I'm still thinking.....
When you said that it made your relationship more intense when you revealed all what did you mean? Was it better , or worse for you I mean.......and, did he pull away the more you shared your feelings with him about him? Did he slap the boudaries down before you on the table and say okay, happyflower this is how ist is....!?
I do understand what you mean about the other type of love the deep eternal kind which wants the best for a person and is selfless...of course i also feel that too...otherwise I wouldn't have been able to keep going for 3 years!!
But that kind wasn't what was bothering me so much that I had to share it with the world!!
I have about at least a few people going on in my personality right now...and they are feeling different feelings for her....that's all, and I only posted about the sexual stuff as that was coming very much to the forefront of my mind more and more recently....
sometimes i wondeer what would she do if i just leaned over and went to kiss her....what could she do? would she let me? would it take her by surprise? how long before she stopped me? ./..
.all these sorts of Q's and more go through my mind...as Im sure you can imagine.(I like the post by you the other day about the grunting noise effects which you now have to accompany your fantasies...that was funny, and at the same time i really understand how that must be soooooooooo hard for you, I just don't know anymore... I think like Muffled I need to think some more....My inner child is out to play alot too right now, and she sees her as her mummy!!! .......is this confusing anyone or not...lol
hhhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuu!!! big sigh........
I would like to play with you if you like, we could play your game of mud pie throwing but not just at the therapist, I also want to have fun with us playing at being childlike....lets have some pillow fights where all the feathers come out... and we sing into hairbrushes all the old songs like.. 'baby love my baby love' and generally have a child like fun play time 2gether....
anyone else want to play?? any suggestions??
My T is away on hols so i have lots os stime to think this one thru.......and play alittle with you happyflower and anyone else if you like.?
Take care to all the lovely peoples on these special boards....... be ahppy,,,be silly,, I KISS MY HAND...hehe just to comfort myself.yes im single...and pretty okay looking too when ive not been crying.... so anyone out there fancy a kiss and cuddle with me just holler as they say in Jamaica ( that cracks me up the way they talk over there....holler at you later'..and I'm like - right, okay man.!!! lol wyouve got to laugh...at least the child in us ALL NEEDS TO LOL........try it laugh out loud right now even if its just a ha! try it again HA HA...keep doing it and even for 10 secs it makes you feel better.... unless you're so depressed that isn't for you today but if you're mildly depressed, and fancy letting your inner child out to play it is fun...I also put on the music and dance as if no one is watching me...thats fun tooo
sorry ive rambled on..... and i was only going to say a couple of lines...but i actually feel a bit better just from writing.so I guess thats proof this board is fabby!!!
hope ive not annoyed anyone with this crazy daft post...it satrted serious and ends childlikee... whoops there i go now getting all paranoid now!!!! gotta go..byeeeeeeee
Lots of good wishes from scented garden...
p.s. I await some playmates...and I dont mean sex...and I hope you dont think im too forward asking for a date on here to kiss me and cuddle ... by the way i'm sort of bi sexual so it's not only women i love to be close to .....anyway....it's justt a bit of fun for me as my beloved mummy T and my gorgoue T and my friendly T is away from me on her holidays!!! awwwe that even hurts me now so much just to the the word her holidays.because she's gone without me and thats the reality...im not in her life. NOT REALLY>>>OH GOD MY CHEST IS ACHING NOW AND IM UPSET AND CRYING...SH*T.....f*ck SOBBING NOW HERE -----------SH*TTY RULES GOTTA GO..
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