Posted by rubenstein on June 10, 2006, at 15:20:47
In reply to Ivy league TRIGGER, posted by llrrrpp on June 9, 2006, at 16:22:55
I being an over-achiever and still in school pursuing a doctorate have also fallen victim to cutting. Nothing you do is ever enough. You think you will find the top but it is never there. There is always somewhere higher to go.
Being a musician things are never perfect. No grades, so always the guilt....everything could have gone a little better for what is perfect music?rachel
> NO! [gasp!]
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> Oh my god!!!
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> IVY league students? they hurt themselves?!?! Impossible! The kids with the pressure from all sides to be perfection. To have an application that represents the pinnacle of achievement? Community Service, Test Scores, GPA, A Save the World type Hobby, Being CEO of a multi-national corporation before the age of 18.
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> I had no idea that such individuals might suffer from psychopathology.
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> Well. this should just go to say that being smart in school is not the same as being able to make decisions that will lead to lifelong happiness. Having a degree from an Ivy League institution does not render one immune to insecurity and feelings of wanting to die.
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> Cutting in the high achievers. Well. I guess I'm one of them. Have a fantastic academic portfolio. Yep. On paper I'm la creme de la creme. And inside--- I'm hurting badly (sometimes, not always). The cutting, and SI is a way of saying to the world- take my hurting seriously. Listen to me! I'm screaming and no one hears me!! they only hear my smiles, they don't read my psychotic journal entries, they only read my scholarly papers. They don't care to ask about my emotional health, they assume that the proper answer to "how are you" is "I got an A on my last quiz".
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> Poor poor kids...
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> Cornell's gorges.
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> -ll
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