Posted by curtm on June 7, 2006, at 11:17:18
In reply to Goodbye Depression, Hello Guilt, posted by llrrrpp on June 6, 2006, at 18:56:22
I have lived most of my life without guilt. I have done bad things to myself and others and had no conscience about it. Some things were even premeditated, others experimental, perhaps. I have not committed misdemeanor or felony crimes against people, but have caused emotional harm to myself and others. Even in the form of harmful, hateful thoughts that they aren't aware of.
I don't deal with my past because of it. And I don't deal with it because of my past. It all just "happened."
The dam of guilt has started to crack, though and pinholes are starting to sray through. I can only patch so much at a time, it wears me out.
The don't when the wave will hit with full force, but if I don't let it, it will continue to grow.
I'm kinda scared.
poster:curtm
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