Posted by Daisym on April 7, 2006, at 1:11:01
In reply to session yesterday**trigger**, posted by B2chica on April 6, 2006, at 9:12:21
Who are you trying to convince? The therapist or us...or yourself? You sound like me...
If it is Ok, I'd like to try to walk you through this in a way my therapist did for me. If I get nothing else out of therapy, his reframing about something for me is worth every tear.
So, to start with, try to get your mind back to that age and if you can, let yourself feel the fear. Now, how would you, as little B2, tell your brother and friends to stop? Did you have the words back then? Could you push back the fear in your throat to get those words out? Do you feel strong? I'm guessing no.
Now, try to get inside her head as you were watching all this. Is she having fun? Smiling on the inside and out? Did you repeat this adventure when you were alone? Did she suggest it to them the next time?
If you really let yourself think about it in these ways, it gets clearer and clearer that this wasn't a self-chosen, enjoyable activity. You were frozen with fear, your brain turned off and you went into pure safety and survival mode. I'm sure that your therapist knows this and isn't judging you. I'm guessing her questions are to help you begin to give the details of your stories so that the truth is clear to the only one who really matters -- YOU.
Hang in. I'm proud of you for talking about this with her. Trust is built slowly, one word at a time.
Hugs,
Daisy
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