Posted by Poet on April 6, 2006, at 13:44:34
In reply to session yesterday**trigger**, posted by B2chica on April 6, 2006, at 9:12:21
Hi B2chica,
<<truth is my brother would pull me downstairs and have me sit between the two of them and coach me. so i think...maybe i did 'want' it. i KNOW I DIDN"T, i DIDN"T. Honest...God, how do i explain it. all signs point to me wanting it. i didn't...but it all points to me being a disgusting person, not stopping it, not fighting it over and over.
I think what you wrote clearly says you didn't want it. Your brother dragged you down the stairs. Maybe you went along with it because you were afraid of him. You didn't yell or hit him because you were afraid of what he'd do. Or afraid that nobody would believe you if you told on him. I'm pretty certain that's why my brother got away with what he did to me. What HE did to me, not what, out of fear, I allowed to be done to me.
I don't believe you asked for it. I know I didn't.
Poet
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