Posted by B2chica on February 13, 2006, at 12:43:33
In reply to Hey little B2chica, posted by muffled on February 13, 2006, at 12:26:49
little b2 is very upset right now and won't come out. she's afraid to talk. she put tape all over her mouth and won't look at anyone. i'm scared cuz i'm afraid she'll come out like that soon.
i want to be strong. to show ex T that he did a good job and that i'm ok. and maybe i am, but she's not.
she's even more afraid now. she's hates new T. she wants to kick her. i don't let her. i won't even let her out anywhere near new T. she doesn't deserve to meet little b2.
maybe damos can though. maybe he/she can talk to her...if he/she wants to.she feels like a ball of fire inside my stomach and everytime i think of her i get worse, so i know it's her in there that's making all these waves of emotion go through me.
everytime someone mentions, memories, or when they were kids, or things like that i get Huge waves of anxiety and derealization. it's so hard!! and i don't even have anyone really to talk to about that..."STUPID LADY she/IT knows NOTHING!!!! I WON"T TALK to "HER"!!!
sorry.
i have to proctor a test this afternoon, maybe that will give me some time to write. maybe i can let little b2 write as well. if she'll even let me help her...which i doubt. she was buried pretty deep. i think she slipped out up there though.
thanks muff.
fairy place is just nonexistant for me right now. it's not real, no place safe for me is. i have no right to be free and safe.
no one helped me then, so why now.i'm alone yet again.i hate the ache."JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FOREVER!
poster:B2chica
thread:609157
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