Posted by Dinah on February 7, 2006, at 12:11:44
In reply to Re: Is this the termination phase? » Daisym, posted by pegasus on February 7, 2006, at 10:26:07
I think maybe I'm not ready to examine this too closely. Bringing it up at all is traumatic enough. Well, bringing it up in words.
I made the hugely bad choice to call my therapist yesterday. The return of the suicidal thoughts, along with the pain led me to call him for one of the rare times since he returned from his month long trip. I do know better. :(
I clearly can't talk to him about this. Except for telling me he didn't think it was as much about termination as it was about me being unable or unwilling to accept the changes that Katrina had brought, he made it into something totally about him. He capped it off with saying he was sorry if he was no longer the therapist for me.
Which of course not only sent me into hysterics, but was right before he told me he had a client waiting and had to go.
I'm not going to make the mistake of talking to him about this again. I'll deal with it myself.
I started the Risperdal again, at a fairly high dose. It doesn't change the feelings, but it should make me behave better. And that's what counts, isn't it?
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