Posted by antigua on February 3, 2006, at 8:24:48
In reply to Hurting, posted by Daisym on February 3, 2006, at 0:16:02
I am sorry you are hurting so bad, Daisy. Giving up the fantasy is hard, and yes, I have to say that if you have someone in real life to help rescue you than it does help.
The feelings hurt so bad, I know. Mourning is good, too, and your little girls will come back when you feel stronger.
You know that I don't have these feelings for my T, and I don't know if I ever did it has been so long, but I do have them for inappropriate men. I long for the approval and love I never got, but it's o.k. for me now. I try to give the love to myself. The teddy bear my daughter gave me for Christmas actually helps a lot. The other thing I have is, and this will sound wacky, but I have my tulips. I'm watching them pop up know (silly things, with all this warm weather they think it might be spring!). And when they all bloom (hundreds of them, and yes I went a bit overboard), I think of me and how I'm blooming too. They just make me feel good, and they're mine and nobody can take them away from me.
Just hang in there. I will admit that I know my husband will save me if I really need to be saved, and he has on several ocassions when I've let him. Not that the relationship is perfect, but he is my rock, even though at times I wonder if we will truly make it. I've changed so much and he hasn't.
I hope you have a beautiful day to enjoy. That helps me too. And just keep breathing, it will pass.
love,
antigua
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