Posted by madeline on January 27, 2006, at 7:49:06
In reply to Had a bad/good day/session, posted by LegWarmers on January 26, 2006, at 21:52:39
LW,
I am so sorry that you are feeling bad right now, questioning oneself is really really not fun. Try to be especially nice to yourself during this time because, for me at least, the bad times are never permanent. You just have to weather them.
I agree with you that therapy can make you feel worse sometimes. In fact, I've even told my therapist that I thought this whole ordeal was so full of crap (and that he was so full of crap for pushing it on me) that I was just going to quit and forget it ever happened.
But, I have learned now that the badness is a part of the healing. Just as if you had sprained your ankle and the swelling and pain help the sprain to heel, the crying, the doubting, the mourning, the anger, the frustration in therapy all help the inner wounds to heal. It's like a transient inflammation of the soul. It passes and is stronger for it.
Please stick it out in therapy. You are absolutely right to bring this up to your therapist and yes, more therapy sessions will help you to resolve this pain quicker (it always has for me).
I completely understand your desire to just run as fast as you can, but, just for the next few weeks, try to stick in out in therapy.
For me, it was worth it.
poster:madeline
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