Posted by muffled on January 26, 2006, at 14:02:52
In reply to Re: I got a question tooo... » muffled, posted by cricket on January 25, 2006, at 15:38:07
> I owe you an e-mail. I'll get it out soon.
**no sweat. I'm a bit off myself anyways.
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> Anyway, yes my t and I have had major issues with this.
**:-(
> We both come from very different worlds.
And yes, I think it is difficult for him to understand sometimes. He has a tendency to think some things are big deals (like being heckled on the subway) when they are nothing to me.
**HA!LOL! Give me a good heckle anyday! Thats just entertainment. Snort!
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> Other things like growing up on government cheese or being evicted from an apartment he has no idea about.
**:(
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> Also, I think there was a lot of jealousy on my part too.
He seemed to have all of these things and choices which only money and a high position can get you.
**I had a good home life. Didn't do me much good though.
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> But then I had this dream one night. It went like this.
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> I was living in this one little room - just big enough for a bed. I was sleeping. My t comes in and wakes me up. My first narcissistic thought was I just woke up I can't talk to you I need to take a shower I need to brush my teeth.
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> Then as I was rushing off to do that, I thought but why is he here it must be something important.
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> So I go back to my little room and my T is now in my bed and he is sick, like dying sick. He is curled into a fetal position and is moaning in agony. He has stripped down to his underwear and it is threadbare and none too clean either. He looks incredibly frail and skinny.
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> Instead of being disgusted I felt this heart crushing compassion for him. I wanted to gather him up in my arms.
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> So even though this was all a dream and I am sure means a bunch of other things, since that time I haven't focused so much on our differences and realize that he suffers, has suffered, will suffer. Just like me.
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> So maybe your T is the same way. She might not get the specifics of your situation but she gets the essence of it, I bet.
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Whoah. Dunno where you got that from. WOW!
I learn some seriously good stuff here. This is real big for me, in a good way.
Huge.
Helps tons.
Thanks Cricket :-)
Muffled
PS- mebbe can I show this to her?(after I cropped all identifying info off!!)
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