Posted by James K on January 20, 2006, at 21:56:27
In reply to Re: hospital don't know where to post *trigger* » James K, posted by Tamar on January 20, 2006, at 19:58:03
Back again. Thank you all for responding and saying some hard but obvious things to me. I just this hour decided not to get drunk tonight.
I talked to my wife and she said it seems like I've lost hope lately. I'm at the point where I'll probably agree to go in sunday night or monday morning. I want to be sure, and take care of some house business. I've never been so random in my emotions before.
It is true that the violence is the biggest scare. I've rarely actually been in physical violence, I do hurt myself instead more often. The risk is real though because I when the trigger gets switched I don't think I'm willing to back down. I'm not a monster (nobody implied I am, just for the record) but I have rage and when I don't care anymore stuff happens.
james k
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