Posted by fairywings on January 11, 2006, at 19:27:51
In reply to {sigh} I don't want to have been traumatized!, posted by Racer on January 10, 2006, at 14:41:30
I don't hear that I'm a survivor, but I can identify with everything else you're saying. For me I think it's holding onto the fantasy of wanting to go back and have good parents, and a nice family, and lots of love, and being "more normal", and being able to be around people, and not having anxiety, and not, and not, and not... For me, facing the fact that it will never be that way hurts, and I don't want to have to go over the past anymore, I just want to close the door on that, and be done with it, and be able to move on, and be "more normal", and feel good, and it's not happening, and I hate it.
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