Posted by Dinah on December 15, 2005, at 20:37:39
The good news is that my therapist is planning on moving back here. Or his wife is, which pretty much means the same thing. :)
The bad news is that by the time he moves back I might have to be gone.
The good news is that the President committed to a better levee system today. In specifics. Hooray!!! Now we just need coastal restoration.
The bad news is that things are still so different and disconnected with my therapist that I talked to him today about quitting. In fact I pretty much did quit, because I've been leaving feeling worse than I come because he's just not emotionally present and I get frantic at that. At which time he engaged in the conversation and things were ok, which was good news. But I can't threaten to quit every week, so that's bad news. But he has proposed a way to try and connect at the beginning of each session, which would be good news if it works.
My husband's grandmother died, that would be bad news. It's the anniversary of Daddy's death. I was looking forward to processing those things with my therapist, but my therapist really wasn't much help with all that, so it felt a bit flat to travel all those hours to see him.
I've decided to cut back on the Risperdal as much as possible, because I don't like what it's doing to me. That's good news. But I have decided to take up drinking instead. Not much. Just a little. But since my father and his entire family have been alchoholics way back in the family tree, I can't see that that's anything but bad news.
I'm going to call and cancel with the sex therapist. Tell her that if things ever get back to normal with the rest of my life, I'll call her again. But I just don't have the emotional capital right now to invest in it. Despite what she said, she still is convinced that this is pretty much as good as it gets unless I grow myself up, and I'm not going to agree to that. I think this is good news. The quitting I mean. I tried, but it didn't sustantially change anything. She's got one idea of what will help, and since I reject that idea, there's not much point in going forward. I'm grateful for the tips she did give me, that I think did help.
I'm embarassed to turn in my time sheet this pay period, which is very very bad news.
Our first choice for our son's guardians agreed, which is good news. Though I told my husband that he's still not allowed to die.
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