Posted by JLynn on November 24, 2005, at 2:54:28
In reply to Re: Thanks Everyone and..... » JLynn, posted by muffled on November 23, 2005, at 12:29:43
*sigh* Well I couldn't do it...not this time anyway. I will get there...I will tell her. I thought it was going to be another unproductive day, but near the end I was able to open up a bit. Mostly about how hard the holidays are going to be. I wish I could just skip holidays altogether. They are just so hard. I swear I sounded like a little kid with all the "I don't want to" and being stubborn crap. I wanted to stomp my feet and say "It's not fair!" Because it's really not....its so not fair. My eyes were filled with tears, but I didn't 'really' cry. And I dont think I have ever cried in front of her it's like I can't. I think if I ever started I couldn't stop. Sometimes I wish I could even though it usually makes me so tired I really need some kind of release. She asked what she could do to make me feel more comfortable and trust her and open up more and I couldnt really think of anything. I just don't know. I wish it didn't have to be so hard.
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