Posted by messadivoce on November 5, 2005, at 17:02:13
In reply to Re: I don't know » messadivoce, posted by fairywings on November 1, 2005, at 22:56:09
<Wish he could hear how horribly you feel. Any chance you could print this off and leave it where he "might" find it?>
After I finished therapy, both he and my mother pressured me to tell them why I had been there. They didn't like that I was talking to someone about us that they didn't know. I did sit down with my dad a little and try to tell him about why I had had to go, and why it all hurt so much. It's hard to summarize 8 months of therapy in an hour, you know? I've erred on the side of caution, tried to protect my privacy, and I think for the most part, both my folks are really baffled as to why I had to go.
<I see those good daddies too, and it does look wonderful, but I didn't think about actually being one of those little girls. Gives me something new to ponder.>
My dad and I get along okay now, and he's actually become quite a bit more considerate and kind to me. I think he's afraid of something going wrong in me again. But nothing can fix everything I missed. I think I'm still grieving for that little girl/daddy relationship that I missed out on.
<You know it took me years to get to the point where I can get some of that fatherly love from my husband.>
Yeah, I can relate to this. There are times when fiance just holds me, and it feels soooo good. I know he has helped fulfill that need for male closeness. But of course there is a sexualized element to our relationship which is pretty normal for a couple soon to be married, and so the horniness often takes precedence over the cuddly stuff, sometimes. (We have decided to wait on sex til we're married, which has been reallyreally hard, but I know it will pay off. As a result, we're basically horny all the time.)
<Can I be your sister?>
You bet.
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