Posted by StrawberriesYum on November 1, 2005, at 18:23:06
In reply to Re: I've lived on banana splits all week . . .(tri » StrawberriesYum, posted by allisonross on November 1, 2005, at 8:36:50
The things that helped me plug in a little bit, were my daughter got a very slight touch of the flu Sunday night, and threw up every now and then for 3 hours. She was very tired, and curled up on my lap, head against shoulder, and fell asleep. She's just turned 7. She hasn't cuddled in my lap like that since about 18 months old or younger.
I held her in my lap, asleep, for half an hour, and just the beauty of it, the comfort, the very physical affection and absolute childlike love and trust she showed as she held on and drifted off to sleep, were very . . . good for me. And while I was comforting her, I told her I'd always be there whenever she needs comfort. A minute later, I realized as I was still considering suicide, that that promise would be a lie if I ended my life.
A few other things included a phone call from my SIL, the good one (as opposed to the witchy one).
Thanks for wanting to know. Also, for the first time my ologist had to reschedule my appt. He called about 1/2 hour before, this morning, and sincerely apologized and seemed distressed that he had forgotten he'd be in a conference this week during our appointment time. We rescheduled for Thursday. I will listen to a couple of taped sessions, to kind of tide me over. He has encouraged my taping of our sessions. I love having access to these.
I did let him know about my "attempt" last Friday night, and let him know I seemed to be coming out of it. I related a few things. And he replied with something about it being good that I employed some coping skills to get through it. He seemed even more concerned, though, that we made sure to get me in on Thursday.
Anyhoo, I'm new so people probably don't care, but there's answers and an update. Lol. Oh, my daughter was fine for Halloween, thank goodness.
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