Posted by StrawberriesYum on October 31, 2005, at 2:26:56
and my ologist approved. Hee. He says it's much better than the alternative, and once we have the bipolar under control (cause it's not, and never has been I'm just at the very beginning of therapies etc.), we can work on other stuff, like not using food as a reward, etc.
I don't know the board ettiquette yet, altho I've read FAQ and such, but anything about self-injury seems to sometimes get a trigger warning in the subject, so there you go.
Banana splits being better than cutting or trying to kill myself.
This is the second time I've done a week of banana splits. Both have coincided with likelihood I'd try to kill myself, and I tried to find even the littlest thing I could look forward to, that'd get me out of bed, and help me look forward to that THING rather than dying. If one is relishing the memory and anticipation of chocolate, caramel, nuts, bananas, and ice cream, you can't really be wanting to die because all that sensory stuff REALLY brings me into the moment, into the "living" of life. If that makes any sense.
But now "split" week is over, so I guess we'll see how I do. Plus, I tried to cut down to the vein on the right wrist on Friday night, but couldn't go much farther than my usual shallow "cutting" that I call more like scratching. The "cutting"/scratching, being a new development in my life, that I've only done like 6-7 times since I started this summer. My ologist appt. is on Tues, but I'm thinking about calling him tomorrow AM to see what he thinks about my half-donkeyed attempt (seems like everything I do is half-donkeyed . . . .)
Well, the bananas are gone but there's enough stuff for one more Sundae w/all the toppings, so guess what lunch is tomorrow . . . Hee!
Any ologist who approves of banana split therapy (at least compared to the seriousness of my other issues right now) is FINE by me. Hee!
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