Posted by Susan47 on October 23, 2005, at 10:33:53
In reply to Re: My therapist hurt my feelings » Poet, posted by daisym on October 22, 2005, at 19:13:31
Even though this wasn't your actual baby you held, I have to tell you when my daughter was born I spent the following night, all night long, holding her and crying my eyes out. It wasn't just hormones. Like you, there was mourning, and I think it was for myself also, but partly too because I thought at the time I'd never have any more children. I didn't cry like that at all when my last child, a son, was born. I think there's something about us being women and infant girls being so vulnerable, or seeming more vulnerable than males. Maybe it has to do with all the rotten stuff we've endured just because we are female.
It makes you not want to be a woman, sometimes.
Until you heal, then you don't mind so much, but healing is always vulnerable to the present, isn't it.
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