Posted by All Done on October 20, 2005, at 1:03:10
I needed to feel better after tonight's session. I wanted to feel better. Not worse.
I told my T this is how I was feeling. He kept me an extra 10 minutes. I think he was trying to make me feel better, but it didn't work. Or maybe I just worried him. I think he looked worried. :(
I can't handle the anxiety. There are too many thoughts in my head. He told me I'll be okay or I'll figure things out or something like that. I got upset at that. Why is it always up to me to be okay? I just wanted him to take care of me today.
I'm afraid I'm going to get worse until I see him a week from Saturday. He asked me what I thought the outcome would look like if I kept worrying and obsessing (my words) about everything. I told him and he said he didn't think that would happen. He's right. It won't. Because I'm always okay.
He told me I'm not my mom. I'm not like my mom.
He told me he didn't think I'd end up curled up on my bed not wanting to see or talk to anyone.
He told me I'll be okay.
He told me a lot of things tonight. None of them worked. Usually, they work. :(
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