Posted by All Done on October 22, 2005, at 22:20:21
In reply to Re: He told me, posted by fairywings on October 21, 2005, at 8:18:35
> Hi Laurie,
>
> I'm sorry you left your appt feeling so bad. Sometimes it would be nice to be able to go a couple of times, (or several times) a week just to get to say everything that's on your mind, or just to be with someone who cares and isn't going to purposely make things more difficult. Someone who will listen and care.I really wish I could go more than once a week. I'm thinking about at least calling him and scheduling an additional session before next Saturday, though, because I'm still feeling pretty nervous and uptight.
> I know what you mean about being afraid you'll be like your mom. I think I picked up the worst of my mom and my dad and it makes me feel like there's no way anyone would ever like me. It's overwhelming to thing at this point I have to unlearn all the bad things that run through my head, and unlearn any bad habits I have that I've learned from them.
Sometimes I try to think of the best things about my mom and dad because I figure if I got the worst of them, I must have picked up some of the good stuff. I can do it with my dad. I have a harder time with my mom.
> It sounds like you have so much going on with everything you mentioned, I don't know how you've managed to deal with all of it, and then I"m sure there's huge responsibilities at work too. It does sound like you could use some pampering. Maybe when you have that alone time on Sat? I'm glad you're going out to dinner and then away in a couple of weeks, I hope you get some rest and fun time.
My husband and I had a great time last night. It helped some...well, until I got up today.
> I have a good like too, and feel like a spoiled brat, and wonder why in the heck I can't handle any stress and why I need therapy, and if I"m being self indulgent, but you know what? I don't think we're really any different than most women, we feel guilty about wanting things to be better and wanting to feel better, and what's wrong with that? It feels not so great sometimes, but if we can work on things and make them better then I guess we should.
My son has really started asking about my therapy (where am I going, is [my T] a doctor, etc.) I've followed the advice of some wonderful babblers and I tell him that I'm going to talk to [my T] about some things that will help me be a better mommy to him and wife to his daddy. I should remember that when I'm feeling self-indulgent about therapy.
I've actually told my T on a few occassions that I feel spoiled. He always says something like, "spoiled? I don't know what that means" d kind of brushes it off. I think it might be a hot button or something for him. Shouldn't he be asking me what *my* definition of spoiled is? (Sorry for the tangent.)
> I hope you get to feeling better.
> (((hugs)))
> fwThanks, fw.
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