Posted by muffled on September 16, 2005, at 11:12:10
In reply to Good girl. You remember that. » B2chica, posted by muffled on September 16, 2005, at 10:15:05
B2Chica, I think you said you were a cutter. Forgive me for not remembering, I'm sorry. I kick my *ss all the time about my memory. Anyhow, does cutting help at these times? Cutting isn't good, but its better than death. I view it as a coping mechanism that I use. Its not good, but until I have others, it will have to do. Its better than other things I might do.
For some reason I always stop before I get too far. I don't know what stops me. I just know that its enough, and I'm past the crisis.
For me, the bleeding is a visual form of the pain leaving my body. Like a old fashioned 'bloodletting'. Sometimes I take aspirin so I can bleed more, with much less damage.
The thing about it is, if you start to go into shock, or if you can't stop the bleeding you MUST phone 911. Make yourself a deal that you will do that, if it comes to that, ahead of time. Don't cut in a remote location. Have a phone nearby.
Cutting is not a good thing, BUT it can be carefully used as a tool IF you've got no other choices at that time.
Thats what I think. But thats just me.
I hope I'm not screwing anybody up.
I'm sorry.
But truly, it has saved me more than once.
Its better than being dead.
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Muffled.
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