Posted by kerria on September 7, 2005, at 18:55:06
In reply to Re: i don't want to go to therapy today- plse help » kerria, posted by alexandra_k on September 7, 2005, at 3:10:16
(((((((Alexandra)))))))
Thank you - i didn't see your post until now.
It's hard to know and deal with the mess i was. i think T wants me to communicate more than anyone- more than me. i'm the one to blame but it's a confusing mess to keep more than one part in my mind at once.i sent away for a book- "Managing Traumatic Stress through Art". Maybe That will help. maybe Dr Bob will notice that i used " " for the book.
T has used hypnosis to have internal meetings with parts but it made us too upset because of being hard to accept all parts.
Also once a part stayed out and influenced me for days and i was threatened by her and even afraid to drive- she hated me and wanted to make me get into an accident.Communication isn't an easy thing when you have parts like that.
Now i'm in trouble maybe- just talking about it.
It's not T's fault- it's mine and the situation we're in.we need a super T to stop parts from hurting me.
I'm angry if T gets me into a place where i'm not safe to be alone with myself.
so much is hard about communicating. It doesn't feel safe.Aleanadra- are you able to communicate to some parts- or most of your parts?
Do you journal to communicate- or how? Do you just 'Ask inside" like my T says to do?Lots of times i ask inside but don't hear anything or hear negative words that hurt.
i hope that you have parts that are nicer to have around. Sometimes it gets me so discouraged when some people have parts that are like a happy club inside- ever meet anyone online like that? Every part has a job and they all work together and communicate . They have a "Host" Internal Helper to be in charge that buys gifts for parts, bribing them with coloring books and crayons.
They should see some of my parts.
They always have a T that they love who is always there for them in need, checking on them to see if they're ok. makes me sick ....sorry.
it's only because i'm so envious, needy and selfSish.Take care,
kerria
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