Posted by kerria on September 6, 2005, at 22:56:05
In reply to Re: i don't want to go to therapy today- plse help » kerria, posted by JenStar on September 6, 2005, at 14:50:10
i just lost the whole post- no name.
Thanks JenStar for trying to help.
i didn't make it to therapy- it didn't work.
:( i spent three hours trying to get there by taxi to the bus and then when that didn't work i tried taking other busses, and walking after i called T from the street crying on the corner of a bad neighborhood - saying that i couldn't possibly get there by 5pm.
T acted unconcerned :( :( :( - i NEED therapy. It's the only way i know what my parts are doing or thinking. i'm so frustrated.
i guess that the parts that are organized to take busses and taxi to therapy don't want to go. WE CAN TAKE PLANES and TAXIS and BUSSES and TRAINS by ourself anywhere else. Just not therapy but i always forget that.i hate myself. i walked miles in bad shoes and have blisters.i remember almost getting hit by cars crossing the street. i spent $13.50 trying to get there- $10 for taxi and $3.50 for bus pass.i'm so disorganized. i wish that my H could make sure i have the car- that T could work with me- do hypnosis , and try to get me to stop having this trouble. NOTHING ever works for me. It's not safe . when i came home i wasn't safe. i hate myself for being this way so much.. i took two valiums to go to sleep and just woke up now.
thanks for trying to help, JenStar and ShortE. i'm too much a mess. i Need to go to therapy though- always i forget how much i need to or the organized parts don't think i need to and stop me.
kerria:(
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