Posted by Pfinstegg on August 19, 2005, at 16:31:37
In reply to Re:cant..., posted by jadah on August 19, 2005, at 16:04:25
Oh, Jadah, this sounds like it was about the worst day ever. I know that you have a lot of people really caring about you, and keeping you in their minds- certainly me.
I haven't faced as terrible a situation as yours, but in my worst moments, I try to line up, mentally, the good things in my life, and think about how I might use them more fruitfully. What comes first to mind is your new therapist. Is she caring and "containing"? Despite money problems, is there a way to see her more frequently and deepen your attachment and sense of support? You obviously have a lot of personal appeal and attractiveness in your favor, as well as a lot of mental healthiness, so forming a secure attachment is well within your capability, and it does seem as though that might help you regain your sense of comfort, and your ability to deal constructively with the terribly hard IRL things you are faced with-your illness, and the destructive boundary crossing which your ex-T allowed himself (I know there were wonderful times, but there is also excruciating loss and disillusionment.)
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