Posted by LauraBeane on August 3, 2005, at 15:26:01
In reply to Where to go from here??, posted by pinkeye on August 3, 2005, at 13:42:19
I'm new here and already messed up a couple of posts, but here goes.
Moving is such an emotional change. I've moved a lot and yet I'm always shocked at how it throws me off balance. Even when moving back to a place I already know well, it's so disconcerting to discover that things have changed and I have changed while I was gone. It never is just what I expected.
All this is to say, you never know what you may find. All you need is one enlightened T to make a connection. surely that's worth trying for? I hope.
I hope you have an easy transition and find good things waiting for you. will you be in a major urban area? Best of luck.
LB
> Tomorrow, I am going to terminate with my current T. And I won't be able to see her after that.
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> I will also be doing a phased shift to India, and may not have that much access to internet and computers for quite a while.. I might have some intermittent access, but I am not really sure. So I won't have babbles support as well.
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> And my ex T hadn't written to me for 7 months now, and I don't think he will ever write again.
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> My current T says I should find someone in India and continue to work on my CSA issues. She really thinks that is the key problem I still have. She says, I still haven't felt angry or resolved the feelings. I don't know how to access my anger.. And she says I have lot of anxiety still, and insecurities.
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> But I won't find someone in India willing to do in depth emotional therapy. They would dismiss me in the first appt as being all fine - because I talk well, and even if I tell anyone repeatedly I have problems, I am going to be dismissed lightly or told something like "try to focus your mind on something else useful". And it won't work for me - becuase I do feel bad and while I can focus my mind on something else and can occupy my mind with other things (as I already do anyway), I still want to really heal myself, and I won't get the indepth support from anyone.
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> And I will have to adjust to different things there - adjust to living with my in laws, and dealing with my father again and his interference in my life. And I am little terrified of how I am going to handle everyone and everything.
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> Any suggestions?
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