Posted by muffled on July 31, 2005, at 9:30:01
In reply to Re: people want to hurt me?, posted by kerria on July 31, 2005, at 8:02:49
Kerria, I don't think you are lying. Its terrible the pain you are in. No doubt it is real, its there. Thank goodness you got some meds. left. Mebbe if you have a hard time communicating you could show 'Them' some of your posts. Is your T. useful? You may have to lean on him more. Do you have people to support and help you day to day? Have you considered that you might require hospitalization etc?
There WILL be a resolution at some point. You will just have to hang on any way you can. Do you have crisis lines (phone support) in your area that you could contact?
By the evasiveness I meant that 'People' can sense when you don't want to tell them something. It may well be for good reason that you don't tell them. But ALL 'They' see is that you are trying to hide something, they don't know why. And when it comes to possible addictions, they assume the worst. I have had addictions problems and I would lie to ANYONE about ANYTHING (and did) to get what I needed. So you have to see where these doctors are comming from. There is not doubt somewithdrawl thrown in on top of your pain, withdrawl can be nasty. You will just have to seek and find help wherever you can. There is someone out there for you.
You can hang on. I know you can. Someone who has endured as much pain as you MUST have a strong core of toughness inside of them. It will carry you through.
Keep remembering, no matter how bad it gets, it WILL get better. You can do this. This whole thing will make you a stronger better person, and some day you will be able to help someone else who is in a nightmare, and you will UNDERSTAND, cuz you been there. There's a reason for everything. Theres a reason for you. HANG ON!!!!!
I have to go away from my computer for several days, but I will be back. Please take care, do what you need to do to keep yourself ok. ((((Kerria)))))-your not alone.
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