Posted by pinkeye on July 24, 2005, at 21:51:28
I am going to end all this stupidities that I have been doing - crying, thinking of my ex T, obsessing about him, worrying constantly why he didn't like me.. and worrying about my dad, my mom, my husband.. To hell with all of them. I am going to be happy. And I am going to make my own life pleasant and happy and nice to myself.
What crap I have been doing all these years - not accepting myself, rejecting myself, feeling unnecessarily guilty, punishing myself, withholding myself from living well, hurting myself. And all of this for what? I was really a good person, I still am. As much as possible to me with my constraints.. I might be little bit not good, but who is perfect? I am acceptable the way I am. What more can I ask of myself?? What I am is more than enough.. And I am not going to any body tell me anything hereafter.. If they have better things to do in life, let them do it in their life.. Don't come and preach me or demand anything of me or ask me to do anything. And if someone wants to talk to me or be with me, let them do that.. If someone wants to not talk with me, well so be it. I am not going to bother a bit about it. I have done every form of stupidity for long enough.. And this is the end of it.
poster:pinkeye
thread:532997
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