Posted by RHMMMM on July 16, 2005, at 12:08:06
Sorry to skip the 'newbie' board, but this one looks like it gets much more traffic.
I'm a guy in my early/mid twenties and have been having a hard time lately with feeling down and insomnia (I can fall asleep alright, but I wake up about 2-3 hours later in a panic state). I had problems with insomnia, and I guess some slight depression, about 3 years ago and was on Remeron for 8 months or so. I came off it and was troublefree and happy for about a year and a half.
I've since graduated college and started working in the real world and since February, have had a pretty tough time sleeping - I would rather not repeat Remeron again and am taking Lunesta to help me sleep right now, but it's not quality sleep and I still feel tired the next day (I get like 4 hours, but I'm still alive!). I've managed to keep up with working out and am in pretty darn good shape - almost the best I've ever been.
Looking back, I have been in a new place (new city after college, had to make new friends and everything) which was quite an adjustment. I have been a good performer at work, but I don't really like what I do at all. Looking back, around February (which is when my insomnia and bad feeling started), my boss started to give me some things I really didn't like to do at all. I went to work each day and sat through each day mentally repeating 'I hate this...I hate this,' not really keeping track of my thoughts. I decided I really didn't like my job or the place that I was living, so I moved back to a place where my family and friends from college are and, luckily I was able to keep my job, but I'm still actively looking for a new one that I'd like better. I guess I fell into somewhat of a depressed state now, and well, here I am, spilling my guts to you guys. I would very much like to change and get back to the 'old' me (or heck, a 'new' me would be fine as long as it is a change for the better). I want to sleep but I realize that everything is probably caused by my mental habits.
Anyways - I'm looking for advice as to what to do. I bought Dr. Burns' book 'Feeling Good' and started it a few days ago. The stuff makes sense, and I believe that I will definitely change for the better...sometime. But, what should I concentrate on in the book? What else should I do other than read this book? I've been trying to learn to meditate, but I just can't seem to do it right now, I'm too tense and stressed feeling - I just want to get some quality sleep and wake up feeling good like I used to.
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