Posted by shrinking violet on July 4, 2005, at 18:20:18
In reply to Re: 10derheart how are you? » shrinking violet, posted by 10derHeart on July 1, 2005, at 22:31:03
>> I'm alright, SV. You are wonderful to ask.
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>> So sorry I didn't answer each person yet.
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>> I promise, promise, promise I will tomorrow.
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>> Just tired and restless and trying to figure out my whole life in one day (like that's even possible!)--No, I suppose it isn't, but I know what you mean, I always try to do the same thing. :-) And don't apologize. I'm glad you're okay.
>> Worried about ex-T. a little - for NO tangible reason - I just get these powerful surges of intuition about him sometimes...and I've been right before....he's been ill with the flu, or having great work stress (he never shares about *what* -his private business - but I kind of guess it's overwhelming workload at his clinic some weeks - and when he was on call once it was hard...) and I either dream it or I just *know.*---My God, I just said something similar about my T in a post above. I can usually "feel" things about people I'm close to or care about, and I'm feeling a lot from my T right now too. I do hope your T is all right...You could just let him know you're thinking of him and wishing him the best, etc, without asking anything personal of him. I think just knowing that someone feels "with" you at times of distress even if they don't know what is going on can be helpful in its own way. And I'm sure he'd be touched by your thoughtfulness.
>> ah, well, it'll be okay....night time always makes things seem worse...like I'm speculating he's sick of me now, and me mentioning I was writing something for him made him *really* realize it's been a YEAR...and OMG why is she still bothering me....it could be true...but I think that's just faulty thinking, which he taught me so well how to STOP....but I'm still vulnerable around thinking he'll just disappear (change jobs/move/canx his email) to be rid of me.....sound familiar?--Oh yes, very much so, only now I don't have my T to ask, so it's harder to fight those thoughts when I get them. They are very convincing, aren't they? But if your T felt that way at all, he wouldn't have let you stay in contact with him after terminating. The fact that he does says a lot about him as a person and a T. T's are human, though, and they do have problems, and they get busy, and distracted, and probably feel neglected and drained at times. But that doesn't mean they care any less (right?....*sigh* there's my brain kicking in again. I'm still convinced my ex-T must loathe me for cutting me off like she has). Anyway, if you haven't heard from your T yet, I'm sure you will soon. Have faith in him and yourself.
> wow, didn't know I would say all that to you, it just came out...you are VERY easy to *talk* to, SV, I'm so, SO glad you're still posting here and feeling well and stable enough to do so (sometimes, anyway).
--You're very sweet, thank you. I'm glad you feel that way. You're welcome to "talk" with me anytime.
>>we all just really need each other, don't you think? hope you're finding good stuff to focus on.--Yes, I'm learning that also. And I'm trying; some minutes/hours/days are easier than others. Thank you :-)
Thinking of you.
Take care,
sv
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