Posted by littleone on June 26, 2005, at 21:16:54
In reply to Re: Need help, but too triggered to write. :(, posted by LittleGirlLost on June 24, 2005, at 23:27:58
Hi lgl,
I think I understand a bit of where you are coming from, but in a bit of a reverse.
I tend to look everywhere for a daddy. And for a long time now, I've wished my T was my dad. And that sort of wishing kind of consumes me a lot and I don't have a lot of myself left over for my husband.
So I guess you could say that we've got a bit of a sexual drought going on. And even when I might be able to make some effort in that department, I get really antsy and nervous giggly and push him away. It's not something I think about, it just happens. I think that comes from a young part. The only way I can do sexual things these days is to really compartmentalise myself and lock off younger feelings.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I don't think there's enough ?something? in me to be able to wish for my T dad and to give my husband the attention he deserves (both in bed and in day to day living) at the same time.
I think sometimes I can give my husband more attention when I cut off T thoughts, but I don't like doing that. I feel the need to cling to him, not cut him off.
Is that something like what you experience?
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