Posted by pinkeye on June 23, 2005, at 22:43:37
I have come to a final conclusion about my ex Ts behavior towards me.. It is that he just didn't care enough. Otherwise, he wouldn't have left a patient like that..
He wrote to me for a long time, but even then, he was never happy about replying I think.. most of the times, I would write 5 - 6 mails, and he would reply mostly once in 2 - 3 months very briefly.
I think I should have seen he stopped caring for me long long back, and should have terminated myself 2 years back. Instead I just kept writing to him, and he also said it is ok for me to write.. So I think I was just pestering him without knowing his disinterest. Plus he had also become an important guy during that time, and his mind must have been occupied with so mnay other better things.. And I think he stopped caring or bothering long long time back. I was just stupid to not realize that. I think he tried telling me to go to someone in the US and since I didn't leave him, must have got really irritated with me. And maybe because I was introduced by a mutual friend, maybe he just wanted to keep writing once in a while as a courtesy even though he was bored to death perhaps.
I wish I had seen it sooner and had the courage to terminate myself atleast a year back..
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