Posted by Aphrodite on June 21, 2005, at 19:22:28
In reply to Confession (trigger), posted by fallsfall on June 21, 2005, at 15:27:16
First of all, I'm so sorry that you've had that urge even if it is "little" as you say. The pain behind it isn't little.
I was confused about the timeline. Are you saying this is new or that you did it in response to your difficult session? If it's the latter, you definitely need to tell him right away because he needs to learn to be sensitive to that. Actually, I think you need to tell him as soon as possible either way. Shame and anxiety are both powerfully destructive forces and together they can interact in a very malignant way that can hurt you and prevent you from reaching out.
I'm sorry this is such a rough time for you. I say play computer games until the cows come home if it stops you from self-destruction. I'm glad you've done a practice run here. I hope it emboldens you.
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