Posted by happyflower on June 21, 2005, at 1:52:32
In reply to Re: Happy, how ya doing? » happyflower, posted by Jazzed on June 20, 2005, at 16:24:22
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> OMGosh, I know I'm in for it because he already asked me about when I had something really bad happen to me as a teen-ager. He knows what it is, we got that far, but I told him I wasn't comfortable discussing it yet. AND, he brought it up like 20 min. b4 the session was over?! Like how stupid is that?! But, I do know when it does come up, it won't be pretty.> I don't like to cry ever! I was not allowed to cry as a child even when I had the crap beaten out of me, if I cried it lasted longer and was hit harder. My T knows this, and doesn't push it with me. This is why EMDR works so well. I have come close to tears once and my T looked so concerned like a lost puppy or something, it was kinda a "gassy baby look" if you know what I mean. lol
But I do cry in front of my husband and kids if I am pushed hard enough or like when my daughter had to have heart surgurey. But I feel very uncomfortable.
I remember telling my T thats why I get along with males better than females, because I don't like to show emotion and males typically don't get emotional or cry. He said yeah, I can see that!But now that I am playing the trumpet, I realize you have to "feel" emotion in order to play music well. Well I feel it is opening up a whole can of worms with me. I think I might become more musically if my T can help me unlock my emotions. Plus EMDR can be used for stage fright. Well at least I can hope! lol I still might suck at it anyways! :)
> What, to scratch him with?! LOL Yeah, leave big, LONG welts on his back!!!! LOL
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>Oh, la la! But I would be more gentle though! lol He is sort of a sensitive guy. I wonder what kind of lover he would be? Sometimes it is hard to tell. hmmmmmm. Jazzy, stop putting these thoughts into my head! lol hmmmmmmm..... I said stop it Jazzy, do you hear me? mmmmmmmm..... Oh help me now!
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